i’m so bad at titles.

lately, I feel squeezed.

I didn’t quite realize it until I verbalized it today; funny how that works.

I don’t really have a stressful life. school’s not high-stress, the job’s definitely not high-stress, don’t have much family stress… I mean, it’s all fairly low key. there just seems to be a lot of it. so I’m running a lot. and I’m doing a lot of stuff that I enjoy, but none of it is especially satisfying or meaningful or fulfilling to me at the moment. I’m not sure why that is… does something external need to change, or is it internal? should I cut back, or just throw myself more passionately into what I’m already doing? or maybe… it’s <i>just a phase</i>. haha.

I was reading through old journal entries (so revealing) and found this:

“… we have to decide whether we will accept the tremendous spiritual upheaval that will be produced in our circumstances if we obey his words.” — Oswald Chambers

“The teaching of Jesus is out of all proportion to our natural way of looking at things and it comes with astonishing discomfort to begin with. We have slowly to form our walk and conversation on the line of the precepts of Jesus Christ as the Holy Spirit applies them to our circumstances. The Sermon on the Mount is not a set of rules and regulations; it is a statement of the life we will live when the Holy Spirit is getting His way with us.” — Oswald Chambers

a thought from last night.

“Be rightly related to God, find your joy there, and out of you will flow rivers of living water. Be a centre for Jesus Christ to pour living water through. Stop being self-conscious, stop being a sanctified prig, and live the life hid with Christ. The life that is rightly related to God is as natural as breathing wherever it goes. The lives that have been of most blessing to you are those who were unconscious of it.” — Oswald Chambers

“It’s in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for.” Ephesians 1:11

“The church is Christ’s body, in which he speaks and acts, by which he fills everything with his presence.” — Ephesians1:23